My Love

You're my soul mate
I swear it must be fate
Because you've always been there
But I never showed you my face
Or gave you the time of day

But one day the switch just turned on
When I faced you, nothing felt wrong
I can't even explain the feeling
But I know we both came on strong
And it was instantly a love song

If only I had encountered you ten years before
In reality, I did, but quickly closed the door
I'm all over you now
But previously, when I was with you, I was just bored
And yet, today we're always on one accord

When I touch you, my body is on fire
even if I want to stop, my body rarely tires
I only have this much energy when I'm with you
Even when I get it wrong, I'll give it a million tries
If I ever had to let you go, the world would hear my soul's cry

I was made for loving you
You're the one in my life that's true
I've never been infatuated so much
It's so incredible how fast our love grew
I guess I'm just tying to say, I'm madly in love with you...

Happy

The way you look into my eyes
The way your life stories are described
To know you're always reaching out
Because I'm always on your mind

The way you stare at me
The way you keep me laughing
Just being in your presence
Makes me so happy...

The way you can be serious for a while
But when you look up, you crack a smile
The way you simply admire
The fact that I can easily run for miles

The way you're so gentle with me
Even at times when you don't have the patience to be
To know you care that much about my feelings
Creates a light in my heart that's so happy...

The way you get into deep thought, and I wonder what you're thinking
The way you scroll through your phone and your eyes blinking
Everything about your mannerisms
Traps my heart into your quicksand and it's swiftly sinking

You say everything's so messed up, but I don't see what you see
All I know is everywhere you are, is exactly where I want to be
Because for the first time in forever
You're the one person to somehow make me happy...

I Wish I Didn't

I think so much of you
You run through my mind day and night
But I can't be in love with you like I want
Because something just isn't right
But your smile can light up a room
And can easily make my day
And I want to run and tell you everything
But yet, I don't have the words to say
You're so brilliant
That I want to pick your mind
I want to know everything that you're thinking
But I can't, knowing that you could never be mine

How did we even end up here?
Am I making a huge life mistake?
I'd trust you with my life
Knowing that at any moment you could bring me heartache
But when I'm with you, I'm mesmerized
Hanging on to every single word you say
My heart says yes
Knowing that nothing will really change the days after today
But there's something about you, something special
That keeps drawing me nearer
Although my heart breaks
Every single time your reality is made clear

I feel myself playing with fire
When I much prefer the cold
But you get me every single time
When I reach out to you and you pull my body close to hold
But you have everything you want
And in the end, I'll be left all alone
One day, I'll dial your number to call
And get no answer on the other end of the phone
I don't want to lose myself in you
But I find my mood dependent on you like a crutch
I really don't know how we ended up here
But I wish I didn't love you so much...

Heartbroken

Man, where did you go?
Your absence from my life
Is stopping my heart's flow
And I knew something was wrong
When you lost your glow
I just thought you would make good on your promise
And never let go
I had gained hope of true love
But now, I'm just left with 'I don't knows'

I fell deeply in love with your heart
Although you seemed too good to be true
I completely embraced the spark
And even though there were red flags from your past
I chose to overlook that part
There were many women back then
But I believed I was your new start
You made all of these promises to me
Including that you would protect my heart

But you lied 
And you don't even act like you care
I would never let you know how much you made me cry
Not that I would ever have the chance
I just never imagined that you would be that guy
Who would shatter the dreams we dreamed together
Dreams of being the mother of your kids and being your wife
And as much as I hate you for it
All I desired was just more time

You made a fool out of me
It wasn't supposed to be like this
We were supposed to be a team
But you've hurt me more than anybody ever has
And it all seems like some horrible dream
I thought you were the love of my life
Or so it seemed
How can you go on like this
Knowing that you did this to me?

Just thinking of the days we spent
Memories make me fall in love
They make me fall in love all over again
You weren't just anybody
You had become my very best friend
But you played my heart
And it was severely bruised in the end
I never thought you'd leave me feeling this way
But you did....and I'm still heartbroken.

The Thoughts of A 'Gone' You

They can come so fast

But I feel so bad

Because I'm not interested in any of them

I just want to be loved by you

And the thought of that ceasing

Creates a pain and makes me sad

I feel like I've invested so much time

And on any day, I'd gladly rewind

To relive all of our moments again

Because you've been so amazing

And I think I've fallen for you

You're the love I never thought I'd find

All my friends say I just need to date

Plenty of men and don't wait

But it's so exhausting

And I just want to put time into you

You speak all of my love languages

And I never feel like my time is a waste

But I can feel that something is wrong

And it's got me feeling like I don't belong

Belong to you...

I'm hoping my mind is just playing tricks on me

Because I really just want you

And I'd hate to be crying over love songs

But you're not answering the phone

And it's got you looking cold as a stone

I can't go through this again

Abandonment would hurt me the worst

If I had to face starting over with someone new

I'd rather just be alone...all alone.

Unanswered Feeling

I don't know what's happening
I haven't heard from you in 2 days
And now my heart is racing
And I'm wondering if you're planning on leaving
My heart is hurting
Because my calls never go unanswered
But you haven't even sent me a text
And it's literally killing me.

Just 2 days ago, everything was great
Why does it feel like something has changed
All I can think about now is our good times
And our last amazing date
You call all times of the night
But this week, I've gotten nothing
And now the tears begin rolling
And I'm just hoping that you're alright.

I'm sitting here feeling crazy
Because I just don't understand
Don't you think about me when we're apart
Things are feeling so hazy
I just want to go back to Friday
When we spent time together into Saturday
That's when I knew you were perfect for me
All I want is to be back with you, baby.

Where are you?...I miss you!

All The Things I Love About You

Late night thoughts of you
Creep in my mind under a blue moon
Trying to remember what life was like
Before I even began to date you
I wasn't even expecting these feelings that grew
And I'm hoping you feel the same way too.

Everything about you excites me
Like the way you talk to me jokingly
Yet, when we're in a moment, you're so loving
The way your fingers fit between mine perfectly
The excitement sends my heart racing
And I don't want this feeling to ever leave.

You're the busiest man ever
And every time I say that, you come back with something clever
But I admire the fact that you love your career like a lover
Nothing to me is better
Than a man who has a plan and is a go-getter
I hope your ambition lasts forever.

But most of all, I love the way you look at me
And the way you smile, as if you love me
Just to spend time with you and just be
And the way you give me a hug right before you leave
But nothing is sexier
Than the way you lick your lips before you kiss me.

You're so amazing
And I can't wait to see where this leads
I want to be that girl that follows your lead
Anything just to be by your side
Would be the most incredible thing
You are the fresh air that I breathe...

My prayer is that you would never leave...never leave me...