Trust Fall

I loved good once
At least I thought I was living
I thought I was in love
Until I noticed his heart was disappearing
I invested my life
And got nothing in return
Now I just don't trust anyone
So I don't have to worry about getting burned
Some say that's playing it safe
But I'd rather spend my nights balling
Than to take a chance on trusting again
Just to end up falling

But I met a man
At first I wasn't sure if he was my type
But the more we conversed
The more things about him I began to like
I can be myself around him
I can truly just be me
It's a joy I can barely describe
With him I just feel free
We can laugh together
I can share my successes and dreams
And every time he calls
My smile just widens and beams

I love so many things about him
There're so many to describe
Like the way he gives great hugs
And the way I catch him staring at me with those eyes
The way we laugh together
Making me feel like we've known each other forever
And the way he can respond so quickly
When I give a smart remark that I thought was clever
The way his amazing voice sings to me
Or when I'm with him, how he makes me feel protected
Complimenting me, grabbing my hand
Those things that would never make me feel rejected

He's just an amazing man
I don't even remember what it was like before
But I continue to struggle internally
Despite all of these things about him I adore
It's the infinite struggle within
That brings pain to my heart
Because I just want to love again
But opening myself up to trust again is hard
Is it worth stepping out on a limb?
Is it worth trying to give him my all?
Not knowing if it will work out
That's the trust fall...

It's Complicated...Or Is It?

It's complicated
Or is it?
You tell me now
Because I don't know how to take it
Man, I once loved you to death
But now death is what's got us apart
My love is suddenly dead
For the man that once had my heart
I guess you never know what you've got til it's gone
I should've realized that when
I was the most true to you
And all you kept doing was doing me wrong
I'm not upset, although I was hit by a train
Felt like I was dying inside
All I desired to do was love you
And all you did was crush me with a crane
But I'm not bitter, I'm glad I went through the heat
It was hard, but I came out on top
The tragedy you put me through
Truly helped me to discover me
I've never felt so free
I've never felt so liberated
Clearly, our marriage
Was 100% overrated
No dis intended
I just know who I was meant to be
And loving myself first
Is definitely the key
So when I think of our life together
And all of the time I wasted
I think it's just complicated
But...really is it?