First Kiss

That night I was so nervous
I didn't know what to expect or think
But when you came in close to me
My heart began to sink.
It sank so deep inside my chest
And just melted away
Never before had I been kissed
You truly blew me away.
For a minute I tasted heaven
And just for that moment I felt safe
No stresses and no worries
That is mercy and grace.
The butterflies in my stomach flew away
And you backed away from me
Did you change your mind that quickly
And then you came back in and you leaned
The sweetest moment in my life
This was real
Leaned up against the car
Amazing to the touch and feel
I've fallen for you
Just from this one sweet reason
And I suddenly realized
That the last 10 years was just a rainy season
I wanted you forever after that first kiss
Just want to take on all the water
From this my heart was attached
For us to be together is my wonder
Because you have me if you want me
And I know it will be true bliss
You are such an amazing man
And this all came from the first kiss...

All These Feelings

This feeling is so rare
To love like this and even care
I can't lie, I'm so scared
But nothing else compares
To even think of being paired
Up with you, if I ever dared.

Something in me wants you bad
But I wonder if I'm mad
To want you so early in what we have
I know you're better than what I had
I want a man that works hard like my dad
And you definitely measure up to that.

I want you so much
You make me feel wanted with your touch
And yet, I'm hesitant to rush
Out of fear of being crushed
But I want to capture you and clutch
Only if you wanted me that much.

I really do want to steal you away
Spend every night and every day
Just sit and listen to the words you say
On your chest, my head will lay
With no areas of gray
Enjoy every moment we play.

I'm confident this is where I want to be
You've been more than a dream
Something exists and I can't believe
That you are choosing me
Never expected to be this free
Yes, I'm confident that your love is meant for me.

Healed

I can remember the day we met
I can remember what you wore
But that was long ago
And I'm trying to forget.

Things have changed so much
I don't even know who you are
You changed so fast over time
I don't even enjoy your touch

The man that once loved me
Is and has been long gone
But you just have a soul for leaving
I recognized this coming, believe me

But you hurt me so bad
Why did you have to do that to me
You put a ring on my finger
That's why it's so hard to believe
That what was once forever
Is no longer around
And even with my tears pouring down
And my face on the ground
I'm not even mad...



I gave you so much time
Ten years to be exact
Can't say it was a total waste
But damn, after all this time?

I gave you everything
Every part of me
Perhaps that's what I should've done
But couldn't you have given that to me?

To give you my heart and soul
And to only be lent yours
Is unimaginable to believe
But that's why I'm glad to let go

But you hurt me so bad
Why did you have to do that to me
You hardly wore the ring on your finger
That's why it should've been obvious to me
That what was once forever
Is no longer around
And even with my tears pouring down
And my face on the ground
I'm not even mad...

You wanted me gone
And so I am
It hurt like hell
But it didn't last long

I'm loving me for me
And am finally free
From a life sucking situation
I'm in love with me

So the ends of the rope are burned
And our connections are broken
But love still lies ahead for me
And I'm so excited to learn

I'm over that you hurt me bad
You didn't have to do that to me
I'm not wearing the ring on my finger
And it feels so good to me
That which was once forever
Is no longer around
My tears are long gone
And my face finally off of the ground
And I'm not even mad....

If You Only Knew...

Infatuated
Yes, I'm infatuated with you
Dark skin
Bright eyes
And a cool swagger too!

Don't really know what it is
You're just so interesting
You're so funny
Even a little witty
Seeing you puts me in a mood to sing.

I want to see you more
Spend more time with you
So I can really see
See if this is it
Infatuation to love could be true.

I just want to sit by you
Maybe even hold your hand
Fingers intertwined
My stomach tingling inside
Have a chance to call you my man.

Want my lips to touch yours
And your lips to touch mine
To lay my head on your chest
Prop your feet on my lap
Everything to just happen in its time.

I want you now
And I want you to want me too
To be called your girl
I could be so good at loving you
Only if you just knew...