So Into You...

I'm so into you
You have no idea
The things that keep running through
My pretty little head sitting here
Got me dreaming again
Never thought I'd live again
Couldn't even imagine myself winning
Until the night I saw you...

I tell you that you're the best
You laugh, but I mean every word
The way you look at me
Doesn't make my day, it's making my world

Your smile completely brightens my day
And your laugh is so contagious
My face blushes with every word you say
This explosive feeling is outrageous

You constantly make me feel beautiful
And never put a doubt in my mind
You boost my confidence and make my life so full
Even encourage me and my grind

But your gentle kisses on my skin
Flutter butterflies like I'm sixteen again
Who knew kisses could be so intense?
And I never want them to end!

I can go on and on about how you make me happy
And all of the amazing things you do
It's all of these things that make you amazing
And why I'm so into you...

I'm so into you
Maybe you have a little bit of a clue
Because I run through your mind too
As I'm sitting here
Daydreaming about you again
So ecstatic that I'm alive again
Can't imagine anything other than winning
Now that I know you...

Insecure Heart Rush...

What can he possibly see in me?

He says I'm so beautiful

But I feel so ugly

He clearly doesn't see what I see

This has to be but only a dream

Because I've been hurt before

Tarnished and burned

I said the last lesson of love

Was enough lessons learned

Because I keep ending up on the wrong side of the tracks

It was charming looking forward

But deception looking back

I'm mean and can be rude

He says those are lies

Says I'm witty and funny

Baby, that's just a disguise

To hide all of my insecurities

Not for a second can I lie

I fell madly in love with a man

And when we married, our love died

But when I look at you

I'm ready to fall

But I'm so scared that you'll hurt me

And we'll be nothing at all

Is this the curse and the lie

The enemy wants me to believe?

That I' such damaged goods

So much nobody will love me?

It's foolishness, I know

To believe it all

But it doesn't cease the nervousness

When I feel my heart fall

There's nothing more that I want

Than to be wrapped up in your arms

Fall asleep to your heartbeat

And never sound the alarm...

The Unraveling

You were so original
Yet so common
And I was caught off guard
You had perfect timing
But I've been trying to figure you out
Since the moment you opened your mouth
Really, who are you?
Because I'm starting to have my doubts
You're looking like everything but what you claimed
Everything but what you claimed to be
And maybe I would understand
If you weren't becoming those things to me
Words hurt, you know?
Especially when they're not filled with truth
It's like claiming you're a fruit tree
And yet, you bare no fruit
I just have to know why
Why you chose to even look my way
Why you even invited me to into your life
Why you chose those words to say
Man, I thought our friendship meant something
Truth is, it meant the world to me
But now I can't look at your face without sulking
And more each day, you become nothing to me
But the glory here is it's your life
It's not mine
And it's completely your prerogative
To keep going on, living a lie
But please take heed
Everything you reap is due to what you sow
And at the rate you're going
Nothing in your life will grow
Well, with the exception of your loneliness
And your sorrow
When you look back over your life
Maybe then, you'll know...