A Day In Your Shoes

What if I lied to you for years
And wasn't even moved by your tears
Committed myself to contributing to your fears
And played these games for years
These are the questions I ask myself as I steer
In a completely different direction from here
Let's switch roles so you can imagine how I feel...

What if ten years ago, after we were wed
I took back the promises that I stood there and said
Proclaimed I'd rather keep dirty secrets from you
Than to make love in our bed
And it all started six short months after
Those beautiful vows we read

What if I walked in the house late every night of the week
Would sleep on the couch so I wouldn't have to speak
What if I was that cold to you
After you promised everything to me
You stayed committed and faithful
And I began to creep

What if I constantly gave my number out
And men began calling me, filling your head with doubt
That you were the only man for me
Damn, what's that all about?
I left you at home, making you feel useless
While I took the darker route

What if I dabbled with things I had no business in
I smoked something crazy and began to ruin
My brain; I was paranoid and acting stupid
Acting out so much that I was sent to the loony bin
What if I had followed through with killing myself
And left you alone with the kids...what then?

And even after that you took me back
Gave me another chance to get on track
Why did you do that for me?
Should have been the question you asked
But I just couldn't stay away
I went right back like I had an addiction to crack

What if I had a secret so big...the worst that could hurt you
Not only did I cheat, I'm having a baby with him too
Please don't leave me, I know I didn't tell you til now
Because I just didn't know what to do
Now he wants to be in my life
But baby I only want you

And you let me back in
And just when we seem like we're beginning to win
We begin to fall apart
Because I can't keep up my end
You work so hard and smile
Even though I'm headed back again

What if I completely lose it one night
And we get into this huge fight
And without even thinking, I knock you in the face
Deep down I knew it wasn't right
So I leave for the night
Hoping it'll leave your mind if I'm out of sight

And I continue to lie, cheat and smoke
Maybe sell a little dope
Knowing that I shouldn't
But it's the only thing I know
You're thinking not keeping a job is for losers
While I think keeping a job is a joke

Even after all those times you took me back, I can't cope anymore
So I demand for you to leave and get the hell out my door
It's midnight but I don't care, take the kids with you
You promise when you leave, there will be chances no more
So I spend my life doing nothing with myself
I just don't care anymore

Hypothetically, if I were you, I'd drown myself in beer
For destroying all of the things you once held dear
I was searching for nothing and found nothing still
No matter what I've done, you've bounced back into gear
Just kept moving forward
With no ounce of fear

But in reality, since I'm me, I hate what you've become
You're filthier than the bottom of my shoe, with dried up gum
I'll always care for you, however, for who you once were
Not this careless bum
And after all of this crap I've been through with you
I'm excited and ready to serve you papers, I'm finally done.

Bottled Up Feelings

I have all of these bottled up feelings
And I have to get them off of my chest
These feelings are just overflowing
But if I don't get them out I won't rest
You are forever on my mind
During the day, at night, even in my dreams
Why didn't I notice your spark before
When we were on the high school track team?
I don't know why things happen like they do
But I'm glad I ran back into you
And now a decade later
My heart wonders why I didn't consider you
I have all of these things
That I want to say
I don't know how this will come out
But I'm going to find a way
Like I love your big bold eyes
And how they stare back at me
They always have thoughts behind them
And yet they make me feel dreamy
I love that you're so intellectual
And that you read books all of the time
Especially, when you offer to read to me
With you, that's my favorite pastime
I love that you have a witty sense of humor
And constantly make me laugh
It calms me to think about it
When I'm feeling the urge of wrath
I love it most when you gently touch my face
Or when you teach me something new
It's the main reason
Why I'm so captivated by you
Your gentle kisses to my cheek
Is my favorite over all
They make me feel so special
Like I'm your favorite of all
Or how you give the best hugs
And hold my hand when we're laying
Do all of the things I love
When we're playing
I love it how you're such a gentleman
And how you're so good to me
All of these things
Are the reasons I dream that we will be
But I don't know the future
And I don't know what you're thinking
But I do know that I'm into you
And I think you are nothing short of amazing.

I Think I Love You

I've been caught up in your eyes
And much to my surprise
My heart got played
Because when I wasn't seeking
You were peeking
And now, your heart is what my heart craves
Why you? Why now?
When did this happen and how?
It's strange falling upon love like this
But I'm enjoying every minute
And every moment we've spent
Can we just wrap it up and seal it with a kiss?
Everything about you intrigues me
And I would tell you details, if I thought you'd believe me
And I would share so much more
If you could just pour your heart out
Show me what your committed love is all about
Like I'm the only woman you'll ever adore
I believe in you so much though
I believe you'll be very successful and business will grow
And that's only the beginning
Of all the things I feel
And I wish I could speed it up to make it real
And hope there's no ending
You have completely caught me off guard
I wasn't ready and neither was my heart
But all of this feels so new
This unexplainable explosion of joy
You make it so hard for me to catch my breath boy
Biting my thumb and shaking my head because I think I love you...

If I Knew Then...

If I knew then, what I know now
Maybe things would be different
Perhaps, I would have learned to listen
More...I think as my tears are glistening

If I knew then what I know now
Maybe I would have matured quicker
The pain wouldn't have been as thick
My heart would not feel this sick

If I knew then what I know now
Maybe I would have noticed your gentle glance
Perhaps given you a chance
Even taken you up on an offer to dance

If I knew then what I know now
I wouldn't have wasted ten years
And avoided shifting my life in different gears
And just maybe wouldn't be experiencing so many fears

If I knew then what I know now
I would have loved more freely
I would have enjoyed just being me
Damn, if things were only that easy

If I knew then what I know now
I would have loved you when we were on the same team
We could have shared the same dreams
Oh how I would go back if I could change things

If I knew then what I know now
Maybe I wouldn't go
But it's fun to imagine though
Because what I didn't know then, is now what I know...

Truth Is...

If you keep it real with me
I'll keep it real with you
Just tell me what you want me to do
We can't go on like this
We're gonna make a mess
So please just tell me the truth.

The truth is...
We started off as friends
But ended up something much more
But when I first met you
Had not the slightest clue
Of what exactly was in store
Now I've fallen hard
Your love is off the charts
But I'm scared to keep it real with you
Because I don't want to be played
I can't go through the games
I really don't know what to do...

The truth is...
I think you're the best thing for me
But to tell you, honestly
I'm just so scared of what you're thinking
Because if its not about me
And this is just a fling
It would send my heart sinking
Because I've fallen so hard
I can't stand to be apart
But what if that's our destiny?
I know that I love you
But I would never tell you
Because I don't know what is happening...

The truth is...
I dream about you everyday
Dream of being with you for eternity
I even think about it when I'm awake
You got me sprung boy, I
Can't share my feelings, because I
Am scared that you may be living a lie
In what you say about me
What do you feel for me?
I need to know before I walk out and leave...

If you keep it real with me
I'll keep it real with you
Just tell me what you want me to do
We can't go on like this
We're gonna make a mess
So please just tell me the truth...

Lost Affection

I gave you everything
My heart
My soul
My love
But when it came to you
You gave me nothing
No nothing
How do you expect me to trust
That when you tell me that you love me
It's real
I need to lay it on the line
Give me a second
Let me tell you how I feel:

I have this strong affection
A deep connection
But it's a one sided feeling to me
I want you to myself
Don't need nobody else
But I refuse to get down on my knees
But it doesn't matter what I say
If you're not looking my way
Then just turn around and let me leave
Because I love you
But I refuse to play the fool
No, no, no, no.  I cannot do that to me...

You Made Me Cry

For all those times you said you would
For all those times you said you won't
For all those times you laid upon my chest
For all those times I wish you were gone
All those times...

For all those times you hurt me bad
For all those times you made me mad
For all those times I really wanted to leave
The way things went, I wished I had
All those times...
All those times...

You made me cry
Broke me inside
I needed to leave you
But I didn't have it in me to try
Why? Why? Why?
You made me cry...

For all those times you looked at me wrong
For all those times you never came home
For all those nights I felt alone
For all those times, I played it off
All those times...

For all those times you tore me down
For all those times you slept around
For all those times you could never be found
And my heart was stomped into the ground
All those times...
All those times...

You made me cry
Boy, you hurt me inside
Should've left you a long time ago
But didn't have the guts to try
Why? Why? Why?
You made me cry...

For all those times I trusted you
For all those times I had faith in you
For all those times that you wanted me to
I still made love to you
For all those nights that I gave in
For all those nights that I was your friend
For all those nights that would never end
I won't go through that again!

You made me cry
You burned out my pride
I had to leave you
I was scared but I tried
Why? Why? Why?
I can't sit here and cry...
I'm so tired of crying...
No more making me cry

Standing Alone

Why you're so cold
I'll never know
But I can't take it anymore
I can't feel my toes
And my body's gone numb
You shut me out and left me in the snow
My heart can't handle this pain
I gave you everything
But have nothing left to gain
My thoughts are locked up in my brain
There is nothing left to say
You left me and now I'm going to do the same.

I loved you once
And I loved you real good
Yet some things were never really understood
Like how you told me you loved me
But you would never ever hug me
Where you're standing now is where I once stood....
Alone.

Why you're so angry
Played in my mind
Over and over all the time
And it always left me wondering why
I'd never ever press rewind
Because you never acted like you were mine
It hurt me so much
When you hit me, I'd had enough
I'm a tough girl, but I ain't that tough
You were so rough
I lost your trust
And now I'm through with your stuff.

I loved you twice
Even though I was scared
I wanted to leave, but wouldn't dare
Because of what I thought you'd do to me
Would you hurt me, curse me, kill me
I know it sounds crazy, but I'd rather be standing...
Alone.

Why you hated me so
I've always asked
Was it my intelligence, my beauty?
Or all the baggage from the past
I never knew
But I'm so glad we didn't last
This here was so unreal
Nobody will ever know just how I feel
Hurting me was like your life's dirty thrill
Had me thinking about popping pills
But instead, I took back my will
And I hope one day you feel every little thing I feel.

I loved you three times
Damn, I must've been crazy
To think that I could keep you as my baby
I'm through with your love
Never again want to feel your touch
This shit was too much, and you can remain standing...
Alone.

Head Over Heels

I'm falling, I've fallen
For you and only you
My heart can't take anymore
I know just what to do
I'm overwhelmed with joy
Whenever you're in the room
I'm shouting from the rooftops
That I'm so in love with you!

You make my heart beat fast
Then you calm it down
I'll gladly be your's forever
If you promise to stick around
Your love's consuming me
That it becomes so hard to breathe
So I'll say this only once
I've fallen for you, I'm head over heels for you...

I'm falling, I've fallen
You know in your heart, it's true
When you're so close I'm anxious
That my body knows not what to do
This feeling, this feeling
Is incredible and amazing
When you kiss me on my cheek
It sends my heart racing!

You make my heart beat fast
Then you calm it down
I'll gladly be your's forever
If you promise to stick around
Your love's consuming me
That it becomes so hard to breathe
So I'll say this only once
I've fallen for you, I'm head over heels for you...

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
I'd do anything for you
If you just open your lips and ask me
Don't play any games, I'm not the same
Because you've already given me a taste
You like to chase, I like the same
You've captured my heart and you're to blame!

You make my heart beat fast
Then you calm it down
I'll gladly be your's forever
If you promise to stick around
Your love's consuming me
That it gets so hard to breathe
So I'll say this only once
I've fallen for you, I'm head over heels for you...

Addicted

I wanted it
I got it
Now I can't go long without it
You love me
So well
I'm telling all my friends about it
You're into me
I know
And I would never ever doubt it
I'm around you so much
Problem:
I'm addicted!

You say no
I say yes
And then you let me have my way
You try to resist
But I obsess
I love playing this game
Cuz I'ma win
Everytime
There's no need to even try
If you say no, I'll say yes
You may stress
But I'ma stay.

Now that I've had it
It's so painful
Because I want you every time
I see your face
I want my space
Yet, you're always on my mind
The way you smile
The way ou kiss
I can't get enough of this
Your love's like WOW!
I need you now
OMG! I'm so addicted!

You say go
I say no
And then I always get my way
Resist my kisses
But I just press
My lips on your's during this game
And I'ma win
Every time
There's no need to even try
If you say no, I'll say yes
You may resist
But I'ma stay.

Your love is the best
And I can't even stress
How good it is to me
I want you forever
Even through the stormy weather
So you'll always be by me
Everything that you are
I want you in my life
And everything you want to be
Just say those words
Whisper in my ear
You're addicted to me!!!

You say no
I say yes
And then you let me have my way
You try to resist
But I obsess
I love playing this game
Cuz, I'ma win
Every time
There's no need to even try
If you say no, I'll say yes
You may stress
But I'ma stay.