Heartbroken

Man, where did you go?
Your absence from my life
Is stopping my heart's flow
And I knew something was wrong
When you lost your glow
I just thought you would make good on your promise
And never let go
I had gained hope of true love
But now, I'm just left with 'I don't knows'

I fell deeply in love with your heart
Although you seemed too good to be true
I completely embraced the spark
And even though there were red flags from your past
I chose to overlook that part
There were many women back then
But I believed I was your new start
You made all of these promises to me
Including that you would protect my heart

But you lied 
And you don't even act like you care
I would never let you know how much you made me cry
Not that I would ever have the chance
I just never imagined that you would be that guy
Who would shatter the dreams we dreamed together
Dreams of being the mother of your kids and being your wife
And as much as I hate you for it
All I desired was just more time

You made a fool out of me
It wasn't supposed to be like this
We were supposed to be a team
But you've hurt me more than anybody ever has
And it all seems like some horrible dream
I thought you were the love of my life
Or so it seemed
How can you go on like this
Knowing that you did this to me?

Just thinking of the days we spent
Memories make me fall in love
They make me fall in love all over again
You weren't just anybody
You had become my very best friend
But you played my heart
And it was severely bruised in the end
I never thought you'd leave me feeling this way
But you did....and I'm still heartbroken.

The Thoughts of A 'Gone' You

They can come so fast

But I feel so bad

Because I'm not interested in any of them

I just want to be loved by you

And the thought of that ceasing

Creates a pain and makes me sad

I feel like I've invested so much time

And on any day, I'd gladly rewind

To relive all of our moments again

Because you've been so amazing

And I think I've fallen for you

You're the love I never thought I'd find

All my friends say I just need to date

Plenty of men and don't wait

But it's so exhausting

And I just want to put time into you

You speak all of my love languages

And I never feel like my time is a waste

But I can feel that something is wrong

And it's got me feeling like I don't belong

Belong to you...

I'm hoping my mind is just playing tricks on me

Because I really just want you

And I'd hate to be crying over love songs

But you're not answering the phone

And it's got you looking cold as a stone

I can't go through this again

Abandonment would hurt me the worst

If I had to face starting over with someone new

I'd rather just be alone...all alone.

Unanswered Feeling

I don't know what's happening
I haven't heard from you in 2 days
And now my heart is racing
And I'm wondering if you're planning on leaving
My heart is hurting
Because my calls never go unanswered
But you haven't even sent me a text
And it's literally killing me.

Just 2 days ago, everything was great
Why does it feel like something has changed
All I can think about now is our good times
And our last amazing date
You call all times of the night
But this week, I've gotten nothing
And now the tears begin rolling
And I'm just hoping that you're alright.

I'm sitting here feeling crazy
Because I just don't understand
Don't you think about me when we're apart
Things are feeling so hazy
I just want to go back to Friday
When we spent time together into Saturday
That's when I knew you were perfect for me
All I want is to be back with you, baby.

Where are you?...I miss you!

All The Things I Love About You

Late night thoughts of you
Creep in my mind under a blue moon
Trying to remember what life was like
Before I even began to date you
I wasn't even expecting these feelings that grew
And I'm hoping you feel the same way too.

Everything about you excites me
Like the way you talk to me jokingly
Yet, when we're in a moment, you're so loving
The way your fingers fit between mine perfectly
The excitement sends my heart racing
And I don't want this feeling to ever leave.

You're the busiest man ever
And every time I say that, you come back with something clever
But I admire the fact that you love your career like a lover
Nothing to me is better
Than a man who has a plan and is a go-getter
I hope your ambition lasts forever.

But most of all, I love the way you look at me
And the way you smile, as if you love me
Just to spend time with you and just be
And the way you give me a hug right before you leave
But nothing is sexier
Than the way you lick your lips before you kiss me.

You're so amazing
And I can't wait to see where this leads
I want to be that girl that follows your lead
Anything just to be by your side
Would be the most incredible thing
You are the fresh air that I breathe...

My prayer is that you would never leave...never leave me...

You Can't Come Back

You played the disappearing game
I played the chasing game
And once I realized you were gone
I couldn't even stand to hear your name
For weeks you made me cry
And left me no explanation why
I wanted to make sense of it, but I couldn't if I tried
But I never thought you would've been that guy
You had me thinking you were the man for me
But, man, I was just deceived
It happened so fast, I couldn't believe
You just left me with my heart grieved
So I let it go
Although my heart kept saying no
I couldn't make sense of something I didn't know
So I had to let you go
Yes, my heart was in pain
And even though I could, I didn't want to explain
That this man who I thought I would've carried his last name
Made me feel like my loving him was in vain
But you were gone
And even though everything about it felt wrong
And I cried over every slow song
But I was convinced that you and me together didn't belong
But to hear from you today
Felt like a slap in the face
Why did you have to say the things you said?
My life was just getting back to a normal place
You can't come back and say that you love me
After all of the promises you didn't keep
If you really loved me
Why did you leave?
No, please...don't even answer that
The facts are just the facts
You loved me and then played the disappearing act
So, no, I love you, but you can't have me back.

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Jealous eyes
Jealous guys
How did we end up here?
You say you love me
You ask me to marry you
But your love is proven
From the black around my eyes
And my heart that pains
Pains from the hurt of your lies
Jealous eyes
Jealous guys
How did we end up here?

Damn, you think you know somebody
But the truth is, I didn't know you at all
The man I thought I fell in love with
Would've never left prints of my face on the wall
When I first met you, I fell in love with your hands
Because I thought they were hardworking in the workplace
But one slap here and a shove there
Showed that your hands just loved my face
This is crazy, because this just isn't like me
To be with somebody who is a nobody

You begged me to come back with promises of hope
Promises to love me forever
I wish I would've trusted my instincts
Because your love did nothing but put my life in danger
And one night, your jealousy turned to anger
And then you turned into a complete stranger
A lunatic I'd never seen any night before
And even the neighbors could hear your roar
And that night, your hands loved me to death
As I lay there unconscious and breathless on the floor
Jealous eyes
Jealous guys
How did we end up here?

Not you, but him

Everything about you is perfect
You have everything that I want in a man
And you're doing everything you can
To show me that you want to be my man
As much as I care about you
I just don't know that I can
You're so amazing babe
But I only see you as a friend
And to be honest, I have my eye on another man.

It's not you, and it's not me
But when I wasn't looking, he caught my eye
And it happened to be at a time that my life was dry
But one night with him and he brightened my life
And as good as you are to me
I just can't pretend to be in love with you
You're such a great friend to me
But it's also the main reason I'm telling you this
It's just not you, but it's this other guy

If you knew this guy, you'd understand
He brightens my day and makes me laugh
He respects me and treats me with class
And I can't wait for the day that our lips crash
Yes, I know you love and care for me
But it's just not the same
I just can't string you along
You'll always be in my life
And I refuse to do you like that

I'm sorry, I never meant to break your heart
But I just have to give this a try
I can just see a future with this guy
And after what I've been through, I refuse to live a lie
You must understand, right?
I just have to do this for me
You know I love you
I just love you in a different way than you love me
I just have to do this right this time...